don't even know

im frustrated. God i am frustrated. I feel like everywhere i look i see pain in people, and in myself. I feel like so many people i know right now are just going through hell, and don't know what to do with it. My two people really close to me are falling apart. One of them has some health problems and they can't really do anything about it becuase his work just took away his insurance. The other has some addiction problems and they are facing them, but they are not willing to open up to anyone close to them about it. i have a friend who lives out of state that was just admitted to a psychiatric ward because they have an eating disorder and have been cutting themself. I have a friend that might end up in prison for a few years. I have a few friends who got married in the past 4 years and all their marrages are falling apart because of stupid ass shit, and their spouces won't say a word to anyone about what's going on, and try and keep their other half from talking. I have another friend who is in an abusive relationship and they don't know how to get out of it. They try to justify it and say they need to do hard work to get through it. And the list of crap goes on and on and on and on.

God, seriously, what is going on? Where are you in all of this. Where are you for the people who are in their 20's and are just falling apart. It's so easy for someone to say, give it to God. Or trust God, but seriously where are you? What are you doing. Most of these people are people that love you and are trying to seek you. Their families are falling apart. they are falling apart. They are trapt and can't see a way out. They need you and are in desprate need. Where are you? When does it end? When does your freedome hit us? When does your peace rest on us? when do you save us? when do you put your hand in? What do we need to do? We are tired. We are frustrated, we are sick, we are wounded, broken and filled with anxiety. I feel like Jeremiah. People tell me that anxiety, concern, frustration are bad, they tell me to rest in you and to have peace. Twice jeremiah says "They dress the wound of my people as though it were not serious. 'Peace, peace' they say, but there is no peace!" There is no peace. Our souls are dying. Our mistakes have caught up to us. The world has hit us like a wreaking ball, and we are just suppose to be ok and have peace and surrender to you. Surrender to you, yes always, but how are we suppose to function. How do we follow you when we are so broken? How are we suppose to run after you when are legs are broken? How are we suppose to give up the things we have bound ourselves too, when we lost the key? People would say we are keeping ourselves in the room and all we need to do is open the door. God freaking guide us to it. Pick us up and bring us to it. Show us how, open our eyes, our ears, our hearts. Am i frustrated, yes. I am sick of hurting. I am sick of seeing other people hurt. Am i anxious yes, because my feet are not planted. should they be? i guess so, in you. But when you constantly feel the rug get torn out from under you, and you feel rejection constantly, and you don't understand what it really means to be loved, how do we understand your love. When everything we have known has been twisted and distorted and untrue, how do we really learn to trust. When something is so far outside our understanding of reality, how do we really trust you. How do we really take our hand off the boat and walk on the water. When every person in our life has let us down in one way or another how can we comprehend that you won't. I know you feel it, Jesus i know you feel it. I know you experiance the pain inside your heart. I know you understand it, and you are the only one who can help. You are the only one who can do something about it. You are the only one who can save us, you are the only one who can free us, you are the only one who can bring peace. Jesus bring it. Please God no more, please. Peter says your devine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of you. Jesus save us, save us, save us. bring peace, bring love, bring mercy, bring justice, bring hope. So that our struggles will become small and our joy will become great. God i am frustrated, I deal with anxiety, i struggle, i have sinned so much, and it continues. God just be here. Save me, save my family, save my friends, save my church becuase the enemy is close and he is tearing us apart. Please don't let him. Please don't allow him too. Bind him so he cannot touch us anylonger.