I beleive

I believe in God the Father, Creator of Heaven and Earth
I believe in Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior
I believe that in him I have all the love and grace i will ever need on this earth
I believe that although in him i have all the love and grace i will ever need, it would be nice to know and accept the love of others.
I believe that God the Father through Jesus Christ sent his spirit to lead me and guide me in my life that i might bring about the kingdom of God here on this Earth.
I believe i need God's grace and love more despreatly then anyone else, because i am the chief of all sinners and there is no a sin i have not committed.
I believe that God is going to lead me through What EVER! pain, suffering, pruning, churing, joyous, redemptive, loving, dangerous circumstances and situations that i need to go through so that i might know him more deeply, love him more deeply, and love the people around me.
I believe that closest i will ever feel to God is when i am in the places with people that other people would consider the closest thing to hell.
I believe that the smell of homelessness is the smell of Jesus.
I believe that sin does not seperate us from God, but that he draws closer to us in it, and yet we continue to keep our backs turned.
I beleive this because when we sin we are putting ourselves at the cross of Jesus.
I beleive that everyone, including myself has addictions.
I beleive that God will use everything and anything to bring us closer to him including our sins and addictions.
I believe that the Church should be the hope of the world, and the resemblence of Christ in the world.
I believe that we should not be here to condemn the world but to save it.
I believe we should carry eachothers burdens and love eachother through struggle, not cast judgement with out love, or love with out truth.
I believe that all people will sin, that everyone will fall short of the glory of God.
I beleive that it is not always our job to tell them they are wrong, but to live a life in front of them showing them what is good.
I beleive we must go to where others are comfortable to love them, and invite them to where we are comfortable to.
I believe that every christian should always be the first to admit their wrongs in front of everyone, before ever telling someone else they are wrong.
I believer that we need to be the most brutally honest people on the planet about our own struggles, and about Jesus' love and Grace.
I believe that when we see addicts we should love them and help them and care for them.
I believe that we should give them clean needles to heroin addicts, so they don't get aids or spread aids.
I believe we should give condoms to prostitutes for the same reason.
I believe that sex education should teach more then abstenace only.
I believe that Christians should work in abotion clinics, not as people who perform the procedure, but as councelors who will be there for the girls before to tell them they have more options and after to let them know they are still loved regardless of their sin.
I believe that anyone who holds up a sign condeming people in the name of Jesus, has been givin a completly false impression of who Jesus is.
I believe that we should preach the Gospel were ever we go and only use words when nessisary.
I believe that it is pointless to argue agaisnt science using the Bible.
I believe that the Bible reaveals to us the truth about God, and about us, and that it is completly infailible.
I believe that the Bible was writen before the enlightenment and therefore should not be held to the standards of historical and scientific methidology that we post enlightenment christians hold it to.
I believe if we hold it to those methods we will lose so much meaning and depth that it offers.
I believe that the only way to heaven is through Jesus Christ.
I believe that all our actions will be brought to judgement.
I believe that Jesus' grace surpaces all of or concieved ideas of what it is, including my own.
I believe that God's plan is always about redemption and reconciliation.
I believe that each day i will grow closer to God
I believe that i need the trinity in my heart.
I believe in the Holy Spirit
I believe in Jesus Christ
I believe in God the Father
I believe

whatever it takes

how much more will i have to take
before i start to break
before your will is what i embrace.

How much more will you push me through
before i know the truth
before i understand you and believe your plan.

what ever it takes
no matter how hard
i will walk the line
i won't change my mind.

What ever it takes
to know your grace
to know your will
to give up my plans
to let you change this man.

all i ask is that you reach out your hand
I don't need to know your plan
with all the hills and shifting sand
give me the strength to trust in you with no mistake.

waiting for you

it seems like its been forever
but i know that it won't be never
because soon enough i'll feel you in my arms.

I might not know you now
you might have been a face in the crowd
but i know that soon enough we will be together

patience is hard to learn
when everything else is quick and easy
waiting for someone to love
can seem like a life time

you will be my diamond in the sky
as i see the diamonds in your eyes
Then our souls will dance together
and they will sing forever

i will be the hand you take
when your scared or when you break
ill be the one who stands
right by your side

and even when we get frustrated
i will never leave you feeling jaded,
i will love you even more
and hold you close to me.
this is what our love will be.

don't even know

im frustrated. God i am frustrated. I feel like everywhere i look i see pain in people, and in myself. I feel like so many people i know right now are just going through hell, and don't know what to do with it. My two people really close to me are falling apart. One of them has some health problems and they can't really do anything about it becuase his work just took away his insurance. The other has some addiction problems and they are facing them, but they are not willing to open up to anyone close to them about it. i have a friend who lives out of state that was just admitted to a psychiatric ward because they have an eating disorder and have been cutting themself. I have a friend that might end up in prison for a few years. I have a few friends who got married in the past 4 years and all their marrages are falling apart because of stupid ass shit, and their spouces won't say a word to anyone about what's going on, and try and keep their other half from talking. I have another friend who is in an abusive relationship and they don't know how to get out of it. They try to justify it and say they need to do hard work to get through it. And the list of crap goes on and on and on and on.

God, seriously, what is going on? Where are you in all of this. Where are you for the people who are in their 20's and are just falling apart. It's so easy for someone to say, give it to God. Or trust God, but seriously where are you? What are you doing. Most of these people are people that love you and are trying to seek you. Their families are falling apart. they are falling apart. They are trapt and can't see a way out. They need you and are in desprate need. Where are you? When does it end? When does your freedome hit us? When does your peace rest on us? when do you save us? when do you put your hand in? What do we need to do? We are tired. We are frustrated, we are sick, we are wounded, broken and filled with anxiety. I feel like Jeremiah. People tell me that anxiety, concern, frustration are bad, they tell me to rest in you and to have peace. Twice jeremiah says "They dress the wound of my people as though it were not serious. 'Peace, peace' they say, but there is no peace!" There is no peace. Our souls are dying. Our mistakes have caught up to us. The world has hit us like a wreaking ball, and we are just suppose to be ok and have peace and surrender to you. Surrender to you, yes always, but how are we suppose to function. How do we follow you when we are so broken? How are we suppose to run after you when are legs are broken? How are we suppose to give up the things we have bound ourselves too, when we lost the key? People would say we are keeping ourselves in the room and all we need to do is open the door. God freaking guide us to it. Pick us up and bring us to it. Show us how, open our eyes, our ears, our hearts. Am i frustrated, yes. I am sick of hurting. I am sick of seeing other people hurt. Am i anxious yes, because my feet are not planted. should they be? i guess so, in you. But when you constantly feel the rug get torn out from under you, and you feel rejection constantly, and you don't understand what it really means to be loved, how do we understand your love. When everything we have known has been twisted and distorted and untrue, how do we really learn to trust. When something is so far outside our understanding of reality, how do we really trust you. How do we really take our hand off the boat and walk on the water. When every person in our life has let us down in one way or another how can we comprehend that you won't. I know you feel it, Jesus i know you feel it. I know you experiance the pain inside your heart. I know you understand it, and you are the only one who can help. You are the only one who can do something about it. You are the only one who can save us, you are the only one who can free us, you are the only one who can bring peace. Jesus bring it. Please God no more, please. Peter says your devine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of you. Jesus save us, save us, save us. bring peace, bring love, bring mercy, bring justice, bring hope. So that our struggles will become small and our joy will become great. God i am frustrated, I deal with anxiety, i struggle, i have sinned so much, and it continues. God just be here. Save me, save my family, save my friends, save my church becuase the enemy is close and he is tearing us apart. Please don't let him. Please don't allow him too. Bind him so he cannot touch us anylonger.